2-15 bad day

I woke up this morning and check my phone like I do every morning and there was a missed call from my Aunt Judy. This is not a good thing, because my Grandma lives with her and is old. I listened to her voice mail from last night and it was not urgent, but she had just returned from the hospital. My Grandma is in the hospital, she said call me tomorrow and I’ll tell you about it. At this point I don’t know what to think, it’s a 2 hour time difference, so I can’t call and wake her up and she said she works in the morning. I am really upset and worried. I don’t know what time to call, I don’t want to disturb them if they were up half the night, but I also want to find out the details. I have been dreading this day when something happens to her, we are so close. I hate living far from her and my other family. I miss them all every day and when something happens, good or bad, I’m not there to share in the experiences with them. I will find out shortly and then have to decide if I’m going to fly in. As I wrote before I have a plane ticket for April, but that’s almost two months away. I have a full-time job and school so if I just up and leave it will be hard on my work and my schoolwork will suffer. I went in September to visit, so I’m glad it wasn’t that long ago that I spent time with her. If she passes away I don’t know what I will do. I will be heart broken. My daughter will be very upset as well, I don’t look forward to telling her the news of the hospital or worse. What a crappy way to start off my day.